“Girl!” The all-too familiar summons
shattered the morning stillness.
Shaking, MangoTree clutched the waterskin with perspiring fingers. Its contents sloshed dangerously, and a
precious stream dribbled onto the ground like unwelcome tears. A hand, hard as a slab of granite, slammed
into the girl’s arm. The remaining water
exploded from the skin in rivulets of moisture.
“What have I told you about gazing upon the Accursed One?”
MangoTree began the painstaking task
of signing, her hands trembling in their task.
“I only thought to help her, Father.
The little girl clung to her, and—“
Another vicious cuff was delivered,
this time to the girl’s right cheek.
Instinctively, she thrust her hands upward in order to shield herself. “Fool,” Gruffbear hissed. “That girl is the Beast’s by rights. I’ll not have you socializing with those
blights upon our land! Now, since you so carelessly spilled our water, I
suggest you procure more. No delays!”
MangoTree staggered toward the nearby
stream. Pain sliced through her arm and
mutilated cheek. Fear pummelled her
stomach, and, beneath that crushing assault burned the ember of another
emotion. Hatred.
*****
A bitter taste has lingered upon my
tongue for all the days of my recollection.
I do not know from whence this constant foulness arose, but I have an
inkling. My mother was a highly
respected midwife in our village. Of
course, this was before our revered High Priest discovered her grievous
sin. I have seen the herbs that Wolf
Tongue delivered to our hut, have witnessed the way Mother’s hands trembled. I have seen her face convulse in spasms of
agony and witnessed the diamond-like tears that flowed when she thought she was
unobserved. She cried silently, of
course, for all women under the rule of our god are denied a voice. Although only ten at the time, I knew Mother
was doing work she despised.
One day, as Mother worked, I noticed
that the fumes from the concoction she prepared were not as pungent. In fact, the medicine’s scent was slightly
sweet. Most strange of all, a small
smile lingered upon Mother’s lips.
The next day, I was in the mango
tree grove, delighting in the feel of the fleshy fruit that was my namesake. Mother had returned from a birthing just that
morning, and, as always, she was exhausted.
Yet, she had seemed more energetic today. Still, I knew she needed nourishment, and
nothing brought happiness to Mother like freshly squeezed mango juice. I always assumed that was why I had been
given my name, since the fruit was her favorite. However, Mother had told me
when I was younger that I was named MangoTree because of the strong roots that
dug deeply into the soil. Her hands
moving in a rhythmic dance, she had said, “You are a strong girl, my
child. Never forget that you can stand
against the men who try to harm you. You
will survive. I have asked that the One
Who Names All Names will give you the strength to live.” This was the only time
Mother had referred to someone who would help me, and I had been shocked by her
refusal to acknowledge our god as the supreme helper of all our land. Now, as I retrieved clusters of the fragrant
fruit, I allowed my thoughts to linger on that strange event. Young as I was, I knew that I was not strong. I was—
Suddenly,
a piercing scream rent the air in two. My
blood froze in horror. I knew who was
screaming even though I had never heard her voice before. Dropping my basket, I catapulted from the
grove and right into the arms of the High Priest.
Wolf Tongue did not address me, but
his large, probing eyes roved over my face.
They gleamed with a harsh light. The
man was massive, and his face was stony.
His robe of wolf skin was thrown back, exposing his bare, scarred
torso. He held a pewter cup in one hand
and clutched a female infant in his arms.
“I apologize, High Priest,” I
hastily signed, my fingers trembling.
Wolf Tongue’s handsome features
relaxed as he continued to peruse my face.
His gaze slowly travelled down the length of my body. Hastily, I backed away. “Do not worry, sweet one. You may return to your home. I think you will be needed.” As he spoke
these words, his eyes gleamed strangely, yet his deep voice was gentle.
Suddenly, the infant which Wolf
Tongue held emitted an odd sound, a sound resembling rushing water and birdsong. Was it laughter? Impossible! Women never--
Wolf Tongue’s strange smile
shattered, and his hold on the infant tightened. The laugh changed to a frightened cry. Fear seized my heart, and I pelted toward my
home. Before reaching the stone hut, I
turned in time to see the High Priest forcing the pewter cup between the girl’s
lips. Noxious fumes pummelled my
nostrils, and a deathly silence descended.
Entering
the hut, I saw Father bending over a lifeless form covered in blood. His shoulders heaved with strange
convulsions. I had never seen Father’s
face so livid yet filled with sadness and terror. I ran to Mother’s pallet and crumpled to the
ground in a heap, odd whimpers escaping from my mouth.
Father
turned to me, his red-rimmed eyes filled with an all-consuming anger. In his hand, he clutched a pewter cup that
held dregs of a strange-looking concoction.
A sweet smell emanated from the cup, and I suddenly recognized the scent
of mangoes. “This rested beside her
body. I came in and found her like
this. Where were you, girl? Wh-Why was
she alone?” With each word, Father’s voice rose in hysteria. He glared at me. I bit my lip, rocking two and fro as the
barrage of angry words pulverized my heart.
Father, though indifferent to me in the past, had never tried to hurt
me. Yet, I had left Mother alone, so
perhaps his anger was justified. From
then on, Father was never the same, and I knew the wrath of the Beast had been
unleashed upon our land.
*****
“I say, miss? Are you all right?”
MangoTree bolted to her feet. She stood ramrod straight, the waterskin
securely clutched in her hands. This
time, she would not spill a drop.
Turning from the stream, she stared
into the eyes of a brawny young boy. He
was tall, and he wore the robes of a distinguished chieftain’s son. His face wore a look of concern. “I noticed you sitting alone.”
“What do you want?” MangoTree’s
fingers fumbled in her haste to sign.
How long had she been sitting here? Father would be furious. She knew she could not endure another
beating. She was simply too tired.
The boy reached into the pocket of
his robe, extracting a handful of figs.
“Are you hungry?”
MangoTree was about to vehemently shake
her head, but, her traitorous stomach chose that moment to growl. Blushing, she nodded.
The boy laughed. “Is your name Lionessheart? You certainly
roar like one!” Grinning, he handed her the figs.
MangoTree’s cheeks warmed. Her fingers moving in an intricate dance, she
signed, “No. I am MangoTree. But, I wish I was a lioness. Will you eat with me?” She proffered a
handful of the figs.
The chieftain’s son smiled and
lowered himself to the ground. “I thank
you, Maid MangoTree.” He bit into one of the figs, and MangoTree grinned as she
saw pulp catch in his bottom teeth. She felt
a light sensation stir within her, one which seemed to slightly quench the
ember of hate.
When they finished their meal, the
boy stood. “I must be on my way now,” he
said. “Can you please direct me? I seek the house of Eldest Panther Master. The Crescent People have repledged their
allegiance, and I journey ahead to bear the news.”
Sharp, excruciating terror pummeled MangoTree’s
heart. Frenzidly, she signed, “But, then
that means, you have been pledged to marry the—“
“Yes, that is true,” the chieftain’s
son said. His face fell for a moment,
but then it reassumed its good-natured countenance. “I have not met her yet, but, I will do what
must be done.”
Slowly, MangoTree signed, “The
Panther Master’s house is just over the yonder hill.” Then, turning, she
catapulted toward her home.
“Wait!” the young man called. “Thank you, Maid MangoTree. My name is Sun Eagle.” MangoTree clutched the
name to her heart even as scalding tears obscured her vision. The beating she knew she would receive was
nothing compared to the reality of what she’d allowed to happen to her. And, worse still, nothing would come of
it. He was doomed to marry the Accursed
One!
*****
I stood upon the path leading to the
stream. Memories of my first meeting
with Sun Eagle danced giddily within my head.
In my hand, I clutched a small token, one I desperately longed to
bestow.
Sun Eagle had remained in Redclay
Village for several weeks now. Although
I only glimpsed him from a distance, I knew all about the events that were
transpiring concerning him. Tomorrow, he
would embark upon the momentous Rite of Passage ceremony that would catapult
him into adulthood. I could not rid
myself of a sense of foreboding. If he
returned with a slain beast, then he would draw ever closer to his wedding
day. My jaw tightened with anger. He was strong! Why must he marry someone
cursed? My hands trembled, and, for fear I would drop my token, I concealed it
in the folds of my dress. Being
fourteen, I was more than eligible for marriage. Also, there was no use deceiving myself, I
needed to escape my home.
“Maid MangoTree!” It was him! He
bounded toward me, his light gait almost making it appear as if he were
flying. I smiled. Sun Eagle was a truly fitting name. As he approached, he smiled and held out his
hand.
“Hello,” I signed. “I—“
My fingers faltered. What could I say?
Sun Eagle took my hand. “I have seen you on this path everyday,” he
said. “Have you heard what I must do
tomorrow?”
I smiled. “Slay a beast,” I signed quickly.
“Exactly.” His eyes twinkled. “Do you think I’ll slay a Faerie Beast?”
“You will bring back a wonderful
prize,” I signed confidently. Then,
before I truly stopped to think, I withdrew the token from my dress.
The clay bead was awash in red, orange
and yellow pigment, and it bore the painting of a graceful mango tree with
luscious clusters of fruit. I am not a
wonderful painter, yet I was truly proud of my name marker. If Sun Eagle accepted it, I would have professed
my need for him, and, although some might not believe me, my love. I pressed the bead into his hand.
Sun Eagle blinked in shock and
stepped backward. “I—I do not
understand.”
I blinked rapidly and signed, “It is
a symbol. I give you my loyalty, best
wishes and—“
“I—I fear you somehow
misinterpreted—“
I reached for his hand. Frantically, I attempted to close his fingers
around the bead.
Gently, Sun Eagle withdrew himself
from my grasp. His face was filled with
pain. “You are not mine to wed,” he murmured. “I am sworn to another, and, MangoTree, I
love her. She is noble, kind and--” Tears sprang to his eyes.
Dazed, I watched as Sun Eagle
dropped the bead back into my quivering hand.
I had worked so hard, had labored in the dead of night while Father
slept. As the tears coursed down Sun
Eagle’s cheeks, roiling anger surged within me.
“I do not want your pity!” My agitated fingers ravished the air as I
signed. He had been deceived! How could
someone marked for death be worthy of love? She, who had the love of a sister,
whose father loved her in ways that were obvious for all Redclay Village to
see. Surely, she was singled out by our
god for a reason. Did I not deserve
love, too? Sun Eagle had shared a meal with me.
Did that not prove he had a kind heart, one that could grow to love
someone else? No! He was too bound by tradition. He had made a fool of me!
Turning
away, I began to run. I do not know
where I planned to go, but I did not want to stop. As I ran, I flung my name marker as far away
from me as I could.
“Where are you running too, my
dear?” That exceedingly gentle voice crashed upon my ears in a roaring
torrent. I stumbled and fell in a
crumpled heap. Wolf Tongue bent over me. His eyes glittered, and, in his hand, he
clasped my name marker. “Do you not know
who I am? I am a High Priest, sweet one.
It is foolish to run from your problems.
Ask for assistance, and it will be given. Our god helps those in need.”
I did not like the way Wolf Tongue
spoke those words, yet, they were true.
After all, doesn’t a god help his people? Trembling, I allowed Wolf Tongue to help me
to my feet. Hesitantly, I signed, “High
Priest, I—I tried to give someone—I know it was wrong, but—“
Gentle laughter interrupted my
faltering efforts. “Why do you attempt
to explain yourself?” His hand reached forward and cradled my scarred right
cheek. “Lovely, I am here,” he
murmured. “That boy is unworthy of you,
but there is a way you can make him regret his rejection.”
I cringed at Wolf Tongue’s
touch. Although it was gentle, there was
a hardness about his hands. Almost as
if, (but, that was not possible), his hands were claws. I tried to pull away, but his grip tightened. Despite my fear, I longed to hear his advice.
Wolf Tongue released me. From his priestly robes, he extracted a
glittering knife. The knife was wrought
from stone, but the blade was sharper than any I had ever encountered. The High Priest leant forward. “Just a simple slice on a cord,” he
crooned. “No one will see you, and you
will grow powerful. You will be a
goddess in your own right. I will
intercede on your behalf, and our god will give you courage.”
Just as the mango trees in the grove
tremble at the onslaught of vicious storms, I felt shaken to the very marrow of
my bones. If I submitted to Wolf Tongue’s
suggestion, Sun Eagle would pay for not accepting my token. Yet, I did not think of that alone. I thought of something more important. I would be protecting him in the long
run. He would not have to marry someone
who would only bring him trouble. With
this final thought, my hand closed over the stone knife.
The slice through the cord that
secured Sun Eagle to the moorings of the mortal world was embarrassingly
easy. However, the knife that sliced
into my own heart would never leave me, and the hand that wielded the tool
throbbed with a persistent ache.
Although I repeatedly attempted to move my fingers, nothing happened. The hand was damaged beyond repair.
After
I broke the cord, a harsh wind wrenched the knife from my hand, and I found
myself standing upon a jutting stone, the Place of the Teeth. The center stone stank of a fetid odor, and I
gasped as I realized I stood in a pool of blood. Wolf Tongue towered above me, a look of
exhilarated triumph on his face. He spun
around and around, dirtying his bare feet in the blood, as if in a drunken
dance. Harsh laughter erupted from his
throat. In my ears, the laughter changed
into strange howls.
“Very good,” he said, “but, I am
afraid there is room for only one god in this demesne.” His handsome face melted into that of a
ravenous wolf. Retching, I turned and
began to run.
*****
Always
the incessant pain! Always the never-ceasing chase! MangoTree bolted down deep
ravines and up steep hills. Her breath
erupted in feral gasps of agony. Wild
grasses and plants thrust forth snake-like tendrils, occasionally sending the
girl sprawling. Having no time to think,
she simply pushed herself upward, her useless hand providing no purchase, and
the other tearing clumps of earth in her frenzy to escape. Always behind her in the darkness rang
earsplitting howls of laughter.
Voices
tore into MangoTree’s mind, the accusing rasp of her Father, “You unleashed the
Beast’s wrath upon us, girl! If you’d only told me of your mother’s deceit!“
The
harsh cries of the god, “This game grows tiresome, little slave! You cannot
escape!”
And,
above them all, a frightened young man’s cry of terror and loneliness, “Can no
one hear me?”
MangoTree
pelted onward, her heart beating so loudly, she was astounded she could hear anything. Suddenly, another sound burst upon her ears. This noise resembled the pitter-patter of
paws. It was not the relentless gouging
tattoo of the Wolf’s claws, the defilement of the earth occurring as he pursued
his prey, but a measured beat, almost like the drums that called the men to
war. Yet, the padding was not ferocious,
only persistent. A voice suddenly broke
through the others, temporarily drowning them out, “MangoTree, turn to me!”
How
gentle yet authoritative was that voice! The girl clenched her teeth and
continued running. She had been deceived
before. In her dreams, and, sometimes
upon waking, she had heard that same voice.
But, nothing had ever changed. No
deliverance. No alleviation of pain.
A
jutting rock seemed to jump into her path.
MangoTree toppled forward with a thunderous crash. A monstrous bolt of pain battered her right
leg. Desperately, she tried to stand as
she had done so often before. At any
moment, the Wolf would be upon her.
“Child,
dear lost child, I am here.”
That
voice was right beside her now. She knew
it was not Wolf Tongue who spoke.
Knowing that she was incapable of signing, she desperately tried to speak. The sheer absurdity of this would have made
her laugh if that were possible.
Child, turn your head to the
right.
Words
entered directly into her mind.
Tentatively, MangoTree obeyed.
What other choice did she have?
Her vision suddenly cleared as if a cleansing light had washed away an
obscuring veil. By her side stood a
large Hound, snow-white with silky fur. Golden
light poured from him in a dizzying array of beauty. MangoTree gasped in awe. Who are
you?
I am the Lumil Eliasul, the One
Who Names All Names. I pursue all living
things. I will never stop pursuing
though many ignore me.
MangoTree
shuddered. She saw herself reflected in
the Hound’s golden eyes. He knew all
things pertaining to her. I—I was only concerned for him! I didn’t
mean—Her mind reeled as she sought to justify herself.
I know who you truly are, MangoTree. Your
true name is known by me, for I knew you before you were conceived.
Wh-Why are you here? Please,
leave me alone. I am unworthy. I-I left that child in the High Priest’s
arms. My mother was killed because of
me. I—oh, Sun Eagle! Forgive--
The
Hound lowered himself onto his belly.
His tail wagged, and he flicked his tongue outward, kissing MangoTree’s
damaged hand. Of course you are unworthy, but so is everyone. I care not about that. I will make you into who you were meant to
be.
Warmth
trickled into MangoTree’s hand, and she suddenly realized that she could move
her fingers. Absurdly, she longed to pet
the Hound. But, such a dignified
creature would surely not permit her, the lowest of the low, to touch him.
What are you waiting for, MangoTree?
It’s a well-known fact that dogs loved to be scratched behind the ears. The
Voice was filled with good-natured humor.
Floodwaters of excitement burst upon MangoTree’s soul, collapsing the
barriers of fear and hatred. Her healed
hand stroked the Hound’s majestic head, burying itself in the silky fur. Without thinking, she rose to her feet,
suddenly realizing that all her pain was gone.
With her hands buried in that beautiful fur, she began to walk, the
pitter-patter of the Hound’s paws just ahead of her as she followed in his
steps.
Ten
Years Later
“MEEEOWL!
Wet! Wet!” A plaintive cry burst upon my eardrums as I rounded the bend. Ahead of me, a large river cascaded over
pointy rocks. Foamy swirls of spray
lapped at the feet of a bedraggled yet dignified-looking man. “Is there no end to the humiliation?”
I peered closely at the
stranger. He was executing a manic dance
as he stepped from the water’s edge. I
grinned at him.
The man stopped his frenzied
activity and stared at me. “Another
mortal, eh? Don’t suppose you need any assistance, do you?” His tone implied
that he wouldn’t oblige even if I did, but his expression said otherwise.
“What
do you want?” I signed.
The
man blinked. “Lights above! Not you,
too!”
It
was my turn to blink, and I pointed to the man’s dripping clothes then at
myself. “River?” I moved my fingers in a
rowing motion. “You want to cross? You
are afraid?” I made my hands shake as if from fear.
“Afraid?
Me?” The man threw back his shoulders and stepped forward. His movements were graceful, and something in
his nature seemed almost animal-like.
“You address Sir Eanrin, my girl, Chief Poet of Rudiobus! I fear no
one. Yet, time is short, and I must find
the house upon the hill. There is no
canoe here.”
I
stepped forward and moved my hands in a swimming motion. “The god of this land has forced me to stay
here. Yet, he cannot stop me from doing
what I am told to do by my true master.
I will help you.”
“By
Hymlume’s grace, girl! I do not understand what you are saying!” Frustration
and fear thinned his tenor voice to a plaintive cry. “The princess even now waits at those
confounded stones. I must—“
I
placed my hands on the man’s shoulders. Relinquishing
him, I moved my hands in swimming motions.
Then, I crouched on the riverbank.
“What?
Am I to ride across on a mortal’s back?” The man ground his teeth in
frustration. “You offer yourself like a
common mule?”
I
grinned at him and shrugged. After
another moment of hesitation, the man simply vanished. By my side sat a large orange tomcat with a
plumy tail. The next instant, he had
leapt onto my back, his claws clutching my dress. I entered the water, which closed over me in
a warm embrace. Indignant meows filled
my ears, but they were soon drowned by the cascading water and the
pitter-patter of familiar feet. A white
shape sped along beside me, providing guidance as golden light from the Hound’s
coat lit a Pathway that I could follow.
Soon,
I reached the other side of the river and deposited the cat-man onto the bank. Instantly, the cat disappeared, and the
bedraggled man stood before me. Once
again, he launched into his desperate dance.
“Wet again! It’s unbearable!”
I
raised my fingers in a wave. Already,
the river was pulling at me, drawing me back to my post. Although many rivers, (one in particular),
are lustful creatures, this one was simply mischievous. However, it obeyed its master, the Wolf Lord,
and I knew I had to return to the other bank.
A memory flashed through my mind of the ravenous wolf pacing before me,
lunging for my throat. He’d overtaken me
after several minutes the first day I’d followed the Hound. But, try as he might, the Beast could not
touch me, for the Hound created a barrier that could not be penetrated. The Beast had stared at the Hound, then
beyond him at me. Hatred flashed from
his eyes, threatening to swallow my very soul.
Transforming back into Wolf Tongue, he had raised his hands, forming a
transparent barrier beyond which I could not step. “Stay here, sweet one,” he hissed, saliva
dripping from his jaws. “One day soon
the paltry protections that surround you will fade, and then, you will be
mine.” He had vanished, returning to Redclay and, I knew, wreaking untold havoc
upon all the land.
I
reentered the water and began to swim once more. “Where are you going, gentle maiden?” The
man-cat’s voice travelled after me, but it faded more and more.
On
the riverbank, I stood behind the Hound and waited for further
instructions. Words entered my mind: Well done, Knight MangoTree. Stay here, and wait for the one who will speak
your true name. I must journey back to
the Place of the Teeth, but I will also be with you.
Before
my eyes, the Hound transformed into a glorious man. He towered majestically over me and clasped
my hand. I felt something round fall
into my palm, a bead colored in glorious shades of red, orange and yellow
pigment. The graceful mango tree shone
with a brilliant luster. My name
marker! Always trust me, MangoTree, and you will bear brilliant fruit unlike
any ever created before.
I
smiled and nodded. However, I would not
deceive myself. I could not bear fruit alone. I knew to whom this token rightfully
belonged. “Take it, gracious Lumil
Eliasul. Please take it and keep it
safe.” I signed these words with pleading gestures.
The
Lumil Eliasul nodded, joy radiating from him.
He clasped my name marker in his hand.
Then, he turned to journey toward a dark mountain. Quickly, I signed, “Will I ever see Sun Eagle
again? How long must I remain here?”
My
Master turned to me. Your story is no longer intertwined with Sun Eagle’s, my child, but you will
not be here very long now. I have much
for you to do if you are willing.
Once
you have been hounded down, there is no other way to live, for you are a servant
living an abundant life. I nodded and
watched my Master disappear into the shadows.
The reverberation of his Hound’s feet gradually faded away as he pursued
someone else. I sat down to wait for the
one who knew my true name.
*****
“Oh,
I beg your pardon, miss.” MangoTree stared into the face of a beautiful young
woman. The woman’s features were ravaged
by weariness, yet peace radiated from her as well. “I am journeying to the Village of Redclay,
and I nearly stumbled over you. Are you
all right?”
MangoTree
nodded. She knew this woman, and, for a
moment, she longed to run away. She had
wronged this lady beyond reckoning. Yet,
she knew she must remain where she was.
“I am well,” she signed. “I am—“
“Wait. I remember you.” The woman inclined her head,
dark brown hair brushing her cheeks.
“You were going to carry a water pail for me when we were little, but a
man stopped you.”
“My
father,” MangoTree signed.
The
woman nodded. “Thank you. No one else even offered.” Turning away, the
woman prepared to continue walking.
Then, she reached for MangoTree’s hand.
“Your face,” she murmured. “You
know him, too, don’t you? The Lumil Eliasul?”
The
women stared at one another, their faces scarred by unspeakable pain, yet their
eyes reflecting contentment. “I know
both of them,” MangoTree signed, “the Wolf Lord and my Master.”
“Yes,”
the woman murmured. “I know them both,
too. My Master said I would encounter
someone who had known Amarok before reaching the village. You are her.”
Although
the name was unfamiliar, MangoTree knew to whom the lady was referring, and she
also knew, without knowing how, that his power had been broken. “Please.
Are you the one the Lumil Eliasul told me to wait upon? The one who
knows my true name?”
The
woman nodded and peered into MangoTree’s eyes.
MangoTree knew the woman glimpsed the truth, that in her mind’s eye, she
saw a young girl kneeling by a stake upon which was tied a cord. But, the lady’s strong hand touched MangoTree’s
lips. “Your true name is Forgiven,” she
murmured. Then, she glided away toward
Redclay Village, toward a reunion for which she so desperately longed.
MangoTree
gasped as a sweet, heady taste replaced the bitter bile that had always clung
to her tongue. All around her, she felt
the earth shift, as if it, too, had been unbound. Her mouth opened, and, words poured forth in
a melodious torrent:
*****
“I
praise the One who Names all Names!
I
am Lumil Eliasul’s, and he is mine.
I
will not be moved.
As
the mango tree’s strong roots dig themselves into the soil,
I
will stay grounded within the love of the One who sat me free!”
*****
The
road ahead would be torturous at times, she knew, yet she was prepared. The One who kept her name marker also held
her in the hollow of his hand. MangoTree
journeyed toward a stone hut and a waiting father. Her true name was Forgiven, and she would
strive to emulate that name. She was a
servant, yet she had never been more free.
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